Am I Good Enough?
I know I’ve questioned my ability to perform certain tasks. You might have as well. This is a common human tendency, especially when it concerns tasks beyond our level of competence.
I spent 2 years after having my degree working at a video game startup in Cameroon as a Business Developer. Prior to that, I had NO experience working with francophones. My French skills were obviously not good enough (Thank God I took French classes seriously in secondary school).
With zero work experience and an obvious language barrier, all I had was the desire to learn and survive in an “all french” environment.
The first few months were HARD.
Imagine yourself in China right now. Surrounded by people who don’t understand English. Your poor Chinese isn’t helping matters.
Now you get how I felt.
90% of the documents I was working on and people I interacted with were French. English was a luxury.
A few months down the line I kept on questioning my ability to “write in French” (I still do till this day).
Unlike English, French is a pretty complicated language. Especially when it comes to corporate writing. Thinking in English and writing in French word verbatim was a disaster. My sentences sounded out of place and the placement of accents (â, ê, î, ô, è, ù) was a glaring disaster.
Time and again I had to ask my French-speaking colleagues to proofread what I had written(the best colleagues anyone could ask for).
Everything seemed okay until I started questioning myself. “Am I good enough?” Can I really create well written french pieces?
Up until that point, I believed I was making progress.
After that, everything went south.
Immediately I questioned my abilities, my confidence fell to the ground and there started my troubles.
My mind recounted multiple instances in which I had to seek help from my colleagues to correct an obvious grammatical error. I know that questioning myself was one of the main reasons why I didn’t give in my best. I regret it!
Looking back now, I can confidently say that a single question killed my ability to push myself, learn and grow.
I know that questioning myself was one of the main reasons why I didn’t give in my best.
You might be in my position now.
Before you sing the “had I known song”, below I a few reasons why you shouldn’t negatively question your abilities.
Why should you avoid the question “Am I Good Enough?”
1. It undermines your existing abilities
It was obvious I wasn't “good enough”. The response to that question was a resounding “NO”.
It undermined my effort and successes so far. If I truly wasn’t good enough, I might not have gotten the job in the first place.
Yes, I wasn't the best yet, but I was a work in progress. However, the question ignored the “progress”.
2. It kills confidence and instills doubt.
I couldn’t write properly in French and that was a fact.
Wondering if I was good enough to be in that position made me depend more on my colleagues for validation even when I was on the right track.
There wasn't a need to push me.
Moreover, he who down fears no fall. Everyone knew I wasn’t good, why try again?
3. It hinders growth
Self-doubt is by far the biggest enemy of progress.
Focusing on what I couldn’t do hindered my development in that area and other areas as well. When the spirit doubts itself, it affects all aspects of productivity.
Most often than not, “am I good enough” comes from a place of negativity and greatly impacts one's self-esteem and results.
Granted. We all need to question ourselves once in a while and find windows that need improvement. However rather and asking yourself “am I good enough”, it’s best to ask “what can I do better”.
This question acknowledges that you are doing something worthwhile. Rather and bringing down your esteem, it boasts it and finds ways to improve. I was forced to learn this the hard way…your case can be different.
It’s mid-year 2020.
WHAT CAN YOU DO BETTER?
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